Do you ever feel like you’re just stuck and in a rut?
As a creative and a business owner, I constantly feel like I need to be better than I was yesterday. I want to strive everyday to be better than I was yesterday. I don’t want to compare myself to others, and I don’t want others to bring me down.
I know my value, I know my worth. And I know what I can do. I know this is the direction I want to go in. The direction I’m supposed go in. I’m meant to do this. And I know the skills and gifts I have been given is to make an impact in the lives of others. I was made for this.
But it’s hard.
Sometimes, I can’t help but compare myself to other photographers and/or small business owners who started their businesses later than I did, and who have come so much farther than I have.
Sometimes, I see Facebook Posts of other talented individuals with huge followings and secretly wish that were me.
Sometimes, I wish there were more hours in a day, and that maybe, just maybe, I can clone myself.
Sometimes….I just feel stuck. In a rut. In the desert. Alone.
I have ideas, but am often times, uncertain just how exactly to execute them.
I have plans, but sometimes lack the motivation to “just do it.”
I have goals, but sometimes, the distance between me and my goals seem so, so far away.
But sometimes, I just really feel stuck. Like I’m not going anywhere, like my business isn’t progressing the way I had envisioned it to be.
But in those moments, I am reminded that my boutique photography business is not like anyone else’s business. It’s not comparable. And it doesn’t matter how well someone is seemingly doing, or how well they might actually be doing. Because I’m not them. I am me. Our vision for our businesses are separate. Different. Our goals are different. Our lifestyles are different. Our plans- different.
So I refuse.
I refuse to let my mind linger at the thought of “what could be if…”
I refuse to let my thoughts go to that place of feeling not worthy or feeling inadequate.
I refuse to let myself compare my capabilities, my ideas, my business to others.
Because I am unique. Perfectly and wonderfully made. And designed for a purpose I may not yet know.
It’s not by my might nor by power, but by His Spirit, my business will grow and will move forward. And His foundation has been laid, so His hands will finish it.
So I hold on, and I hold my head up high…just above the water. Just enough to breathe.
Because He will carry me through.
Out of the desert. Out of the rut. Out of this feeling…of being stuck.
…For now, I will just keep swimming.